As eager and excited as I am to finish my undergraduate degree (YAAAAAAAASSSSS!!!), I have some butterflies building up because then, life with all its realness and harshness shall be all up in my face.
The world, read “I” ,will expect me to be independent. No more calling Mama Bear for airtime or for salon needs and honestly it scares me a little, also read “a lot”. I have no idea what the world has in store for me. I am excited to get there but also a little frightened.
Also, I live in a neighborhood where all this fancy apartments are coming up and whenever I see a sign “Show house ready for viewing”, best believe that my friend and I shall be there to view. So as a result, I have severe apartment fever and can’t wait to have my own comfortable place to love and decorate and furnish with my own money as I please.
I have faith I shall get a job but the scariest part is getting a job that I will not love. I write this as I read for my least interesting unit’s exam. I just can’t wait to get done with it tomorrow as it has brought into perspective the thought of doing something that I do not love. My field of study has numerous possibilities and I’m not even sure what specialization I would want to take. I do not want to have to settle for anything just to make ends meet, I want to love what I do. And when I find what “it” is, I want to dedicate my all into being the best that I can at “it”.
I have all these ideas in my head about investing, about business opportunities, about maximizing on talents and interests for a career etc but they just don’t feel good enough. I don’t know when they ever will though 😦
Also, if you feel like you have something sweet for this girl to do, like a job offer, feel free to contact me 😀 I’m available from next year lol.
And of course above all this, my greatest joy would be to continue making my mother happy and proud of me. To see that what she taught me and all the sacrifices she made for me did not go to waste.
With just four more months left for me to meet the next phase of life, dear life, please be kind to this girl when she comes to meet you.